The Babies Are Growing

My two precious baby boys are growing. They're approaching the six month mark, and pretty soon they'll need to get the snip, snip. Their vet has told me everything is looking fantastic, and he just told me to hold off fixing them for another four weeks. Those four weeks will be up in the middle of October, and I have some major decisions to make.

For one, I know that I need to put fostering on hold. Without Michael here it's far too difficult for me. If something goes wrong, I don't have the bandwidth to do it all. I hate to have to put it on the back burner, but I just know that week of four hour nights of sleep, just didn't cut it for me.

I also have to decide what I'm going to do with these two little boys. I love, love, love them, and they hold such a special place in my heart. Michael was very sure that we weren't going to keep them until he came home to visit. Then I heard 'I'll support whatever you decide to do, but just to let you know, I'm a little partial to Diego.'

So it didn't help. I know having as many as I do is crazy, especially with me living by myself. Plus there's the fact that these two boys are perfectly adoptable, and they'll make someone an amazing companion. However, we had just gotten word that another one of our fosters were getting returned, so it's made me extremely gun shy. Luckily they changed their mind. However, with their original decision to return him, came an extremely long email, detailing everything that was wrong with this dog. I fear that two years from now I'll get the same letter about my precious James.

So long story short, I'm not sure what to do. Luckily, I have two more weeks before I really have to decide. It breaks my heart to even think about them not being here. However, I also know there's going to be someone who can give them even more attention than I can.